I used to be so fucking lucky. And I wish I had appreciated what I had when I was younger. I was so selfish and I’m really nostalgic lately. I miss a lot of the old times, when all our friends weren’t fighting or secretly hating each other. I’ve grown a lot over these past few years in high school, and I’ve learned so much.
Yes, I am not perfect. And no, I won’t allow people to hurt me much anymore. If someone does something mean to me, I’m finally capable of sticking up for myself. I’ve overcome my old addictions and tendencies. Yeah, I’m a lot different now then I used to be, and I realize this. But I’ve also come to many terms with myself this past week.
And if there’s anything I’ve learned in my life, it’s that all I can do is trust and depend on myself. Because in the end, not everyone is going to be there. Not everyone sticks around and I have to accept this.
I was thinking about talking to a lot of old friends and trying to mend things… but I thought.. well you know, if they aren’t around now and they don’t like me much.. I shouldn’t surround myself with people like this.
I will still always be polite. I love to make people happy and treat people the way I would like to be treated. And well, if any of my friends actually read this, I’m really happy I have the few of you guys left in my life. And I appreciate how you’ve been there for me through the years.
Rant done. :P
